Worry is a misuse of your imagination | Motivational Monday

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Two months ago I made the decision to start daily blogging, well week-daily blogging, and for those two months I've blogged every week day. One of the first posts I wrote those two months ago was my New Years Resolution post. Not only is that one of my top viewed posts it's also the post I got back to most often. Something else I continue to do weekly is a Motivational Monday, on the second ever motivational Monday that I wrote I decided I'd use every other Monday to channel the motivation towards myself and my resolutions, because like most bloggers I'm shamelessly selfish. You still get every other Monday for you though, so you know, not wholly selfish.

Anyway, Monday before last saw me reach my last resolution. So today, we're back at the beginning with the resolution 'Don't Worry So Much.'

The last time I focused on this resolution I was still in a bit of a crap place. I was feeling down and anxious about a lot of things and was worrying too much about it all. Reading back on that post makes me feel awful about the state I was in but I definitely feel since writing that post I've come along way with my anxiety and worrying so much. And it's only been two months. Generally I'm happier, less stressed and just feeling a lot better in myself and about everything around me.

I still worry about a lot of things more than I know is rational or good for me but sometimes I can't help it. It just creeps up on me and before I know it I'm feeling sick and shaky and like I need to escape the room. I got and lie down close my eyes for half an hour and either just lay there and breathe (I know that probably sounds so weird but it's so helpful) or sleep and 99% of the time I come out of it feeling better. Sometimes it might be that I need to talk to someone who I know will snap me out of it and remind me that it's all ok and help calm me down and I'm lucky that I know I've got so many people I can call in those situations.

I've come to the conclusion, thankfully and at long last, that worrying is a complete waste of time. It doesn't make me feel better about any situation, it doesn't calm me down and it just wastes a whole lot of energy and time that would be better spent elsewhere. When I do have one of my moments I leave it feeling completely drained in every way and it sucks because I then spend the rest of the day knowing I've got things I should be getting on with but not having the energy to do so.

The worrying and anxiety and over thinking has improved since I started blogging and I'd be a fool not to think that having this daily outlet has helped. However, it's still not as sorted as I know it could be. I'm going to continue working on it. When I feel myself get panicky I'm going to make more of an effort to be rational and breathe rather than really working myself up over it. I need to spend more time reminding myself that if I let it get on top of me I'm going to waste a lot of energy, time and imagination and less time thinking into it all too much.

So in conclusion I'm proud of myself for how much better it's got, but there's still room to grow and hopefully next time I visit this resolution I'll be able to say it's got better again.